False Impressions

Recently, my friend told me that I’m too much of a good girl for putting up with another friend whose favorite passtime is to complain. I’m not so sure if it’s a compliment or what? On another incident, my officemate commented that I’m really nice for accepting a task nobody else would like to do. And when I checked my blog, tadaaa!, I have positive comments froma few readers saying I’m sweet and all, and of course, it’s flattering :) However, I worry that I might be giving the wrong impression. Here’s the bitter truth, I’m just an ordinary person who easily gets impatient when in a foul mood. Don’t be deceived because that aspiring princess you’ve read from my previous post might turn out to be a “witch slash gremlin slash monster” in real life.

aaaanywaaaays – just to give you a preview on how immature and childish I am (by the way, there is a big difference between childish and childlike hehe), I decided to share something that I’m really ashamed about haha!

okey, let me take a deep breath…here it is.

I am not a regular church goer.

Yeah.

That’s right.

I’m too lazy to attend the mass.

I hope to change soon.

But how?

I can’t feel the urge to do it.

But starting next month, August, I will be attending novenas at St. Jude. The patron of the hopeless. I really do hope that helps me.

PS. To you, who never forgets your duty, I envy you a lot! Hope in the future I’d be able to win over myself.

A Lot of Growing Up to Do

On a Sunday afternoon, while everybody else is attending the mass or going to a Bible study, you’ll find me sitting in front of the idiot box watching cartoons or telenovela. I’m not a regular church goer and I really feel bad about it :( I’m guilty! My mother is really against this but I always have a ready argument as to why I can’t attend the mass: I have to work, I feel sick, I’m busy, etc. Actually, I have over a hundred reasons and not one of them is valid. I’m just lazy!

OUCH! I can just imagine people raising their eyebrows and saying “you are really bad!”

I don’t know…but I feel that I would only go to the church on a regular basis once I already have my own family…my own adorable children and a loving husband. I have a friend, she said the moment she gave birth to her baby, she suddenly wants to know more about Him, she wants to read the Bible, go to church more often, things like that. I feel that Iam like her. My bestfriend told me that I should start now! Of course I know that :( Listening to His Word is a duty and also a blessing. It’s something that I’ve learned from the church (I’m a Catholic), I’ve heard from the elders, I’ve read from the Bible, I’ve seen on TV, but I just can’t understand why it’s so hard for me to put it into practice :(

But wait! I’m not naman the super all-out bad girl! I’m currently working on it. Believe it or not, I’m struggling to overcome this laziness. I must admit that my enemy is myself! At my age, I already learned a lot of things in life, most of which are learned the hard way, but I guess, I still have a lot of growing up to do…