Withering flower

July 31, 2010 by · 8 Comments

We were having dinner at Chowking Malate when I told my high school best friend that I have something important to tell. Her facial expressions immediately became serious and then she asked me if I were pregnant. I almost choked with her funny yet stupid question. What does that question supposed to mean? She knows very well my love story and it just so happened that the first and only man I ever loved in my entire life is from the other side of the world. Like we never got the chance to see each other in person. So, how on earth am I going to get pregnant? Haha! I didn’t answer her question instead I just rolled my eyes and next thing was we were just laughing hard about it.

Anyway, I wanted to let her know about my plans of becoming a freelance writer. I’m not getting any younger and at this point of my life, I’m searching for a job that would assure me of financial stability. My current full-time job is dead-end. Of course, it’s great that  my desk job is enabling me to pay for the basic bills however, I’m not satisfied. I want something better and as of this minute, blogging and freelance writing are the only possible opportunities I can get. It seems that working abroad is not for me.  My best friend’s salary is 40k a month which is a fairly huge amount if you are living alone in Manila. I am genuinely happy for her. But somehow, I couldn’t help but feel inferior with my 12k.

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Let me clarify that I’m not jealous. She utterly deserves it! She’s so kind-hearted and all. Maybe a little envious but not to the extent that I’m losing hope. Besides, I’m not the jealous type, I am the ambitious type. Shy, ambitious and faithful all rolled into one, that’s my personality. I have an inexplicably strong feeling, He has fabulous plans for me. There is a voice whispering in my heart that something incredible will happen and I just need to wait and to be patient. Trouble is, I’m getting older. In a few weeks I’m turning 27 and I hate to say this, but reality is starting to sink in.

I’m not yet financially stable, I haven’t found yet the right person for me and to make my situation worse, I’m growing old. Never mind that I’m still single, I’m absolutely fine with that. Joke. In truth, I am beginning to see my self as an ugly old maid a few more years from now. My other best friend is one year younger than me and she is already wanting to have a family of her own. This got me thinking if something is wrong with me. They’re all getting or at least planning to get married and I am not.

I am suddenly confused. Which should I prioritize? Career or love? I know women should get married at a certain age. But the thought of staying single for the next five years does not bother me. I’m more worried about staying broke and being penniless for the rest of my life. At the very least I should have a back-up source of income.

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Writing again

July 24, 2010 by · 21 Comments

So okay, I want to become a freelance writer. I certainly want people to call me ‘the girl who wrote that international best seller book.’ Wow. I imagine my novel would be about a girl who traveled half the world to find true love. Not very original but mine’s going to be interesting and fun to read. How? I don’t know. All I know is I want to be successful in this field. To have money and to be happy. I just don’t know how am I going to achieve that. As of this writing, I need to finish 16 articles about loans and insurance and I honestly don’t know where to start. Loans are a bit easier to write because I’ve written numerous articles about them in the past. But writing about insurance companies is something I’ve never done in my entire life. The topic is a little too brainy for me. What am I supposed to write about LA Insurance? I took up Business Administration in college and insurance was discussed in Financial Management. So, it’s kind of ironic why I couldn’t write a word about insurance. Ahh I think I know why. I was always late for my class. That’s why! I was working in a fast food chain back then and commuting from/to work/job was such a hassle. Not to mention the hideous traffic. I thought the professor would give me a failing grade because of tardiness. I’m just thankful that I was able to graduate with a passing grade of tres, hah! Now, what am I going to write? I have to think. I got two hours left or I’m dead.

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No phone since 2004

July 24, 2010 by · 3 Comments

Most people who know me are quite puzzled why I don’t own a phone. These days cellphones have become a necessity like it’s something we can’t live without. So, maybe that’s the reason why they are intrigued that I don’t want to buy one for my self. Even the fish ball vendors and Manong Sorbetero have Nokia 5110. Yeah, I know it’s already phased out but at least they own a phone, unlike me.

Please don’t get me wrong, I mean they’re probably earning more than I do. What I’m just trying to say is that office girls like me need cellphones more than they do, right? I don’t know but I’m literally clueless about phone systems or cellphone brands or telephone companies, etc. I’ve been out of reach since 2004. The first cellphone that I got was a Nokia 3310 from my Dad, his gift for my 18th birthday. Unfortunately, my evil relative borrowed it, I didn’t want to lend it but I was too shy or polite to say no. The following morning, he just said he lost it.

Now, I have a china phone. It’s an imitation of Nokia E71 or E72. I think china phones are adorable :) It’s complete with TV, radio, email, Mp4, wifi, camera, video, etc. All features included in a very low price of 2,500 pesos. Brand new!

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Medicard for Mama

July 23, 2010 by · 1 Comment

It’s a bit expensive but at least having a health insurance for my mother keeps me from worrying too much. I don’t have any savings so, if anything happens and hopefully there will be none, we will not worry about emergency expenses such as hospitalization, medicine, etc. To tell the truth, the monthly payment is driving me nuts but it’s also keeping my sanity knowing that I can always bring Mama to reputable hospitals such as the Manila Doctors for regular check up and for dental purposes. Medicard is probably the most expensive insurance in the country. Sometimes I want to transfer to PLDT health card as a temporary insurance. My finances are pretty stiff these past few months. But I want the best for my loved ones so never mind about money. I’m more thankful because for the past five years of paying for Mom’s health card, we’ve never used it for serious illnesses. Just for dental such as cleaning and tooth extraction. That is something I’m really thankful about. He has always been kind to my family. In the past, Dad got sick, too. We didn’t know where to get the money to support his dialysis but He is really the best provider. With or without insurance I shall not worry because of Him.

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BBQ lover

July 23, 2010 by · Leave a Comment

One of the advantages of being underweight is that I am allowed to eat whatever I want.  I can eat all the unhealthy, high-on-cholesterol food such as chocolate ice cream and BBQ. Yummy! I especially like spicy grilled chicken with home-made sweet and sour sauce. I even bought a book complete with all grilled recipes which I can try at home. Also, I’m thinking of purchasing a Grill Glove at GrillGlove I think it would be a very good investment. Having one would mean I wouldn’t have to spend thousands for dinner out or lunch out. This innovative BBQ tool would make cooking easier. And because the product is not available in any local stores, I will have to order straight from the manufacturer’s website.

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