and i said “i’m 18! don’t you know?”

i was laughing because you are my father so it’s impossible that you don’t know

you said “ang bilis ng panahon”

you told me to focus on my studies. get a bachelor’s degree. then after graduation, you’ll help me find a boyfriend

honestly, i didn’t like the idea

i had a strong feeling you are going to recommend someone i wouldn’t like

but i understood what you are trying to point out and that is for me to finish college

so i said “okay”

then a year after that, you passed away

i couldn’t believe it

how could life be so unfair?

but i learned that life is not really unfair

some things are bound to happen according to God’s wonderful plan

i am no longer sad

but i still miss you

i wonder if there is beer in heaven?

you don’t smoke but i know you like beer

well, i hope there is beer in heaven

and i also hope there is internet in heaven so you can read my blog

i also pray that God will be kind to me

that He’ll give me to someone who can treat me the way you treated me and my sister

happy birthday dad! – you are the capt. crewe of my life

sa aking tatay, ang nag-iisang lalaki na nagmahal sa akin ng totoo

The reason why I remembered that incident is because of a recent assignment. We were talking via Skype and he said I have to write about boat supplies. Since the connection from my end is so-so, you know how crappy Smart Broadband is, I had to listen very carefully with the instructions. At first I was thinking if he said “both supplies” or “boat supplies.” LOL. Good thing he immediately mentioned boating gears, boat covers, water sports, boating maintenance and hardware, and other similar terms so I didn’t have to ask him to explain further.

I don’t know if it’s a strength or a weakness. I don’t want to ask questions right away when some things are not clear to me specially when it involves clients. I mean, I want to try to figure it out by myself before asking questions. This is something I learned from my previous job. Think first before you ask question. That’s the rule of my former boss and until now I still follow that rule even if I’m no longer her staff. What do you think?

1. Sinasamba kita
2. Babangon ako at dudurugin kita
3. Kung mahahawi man ang ulap
4. Magkano ang iyong dangal?
5. Pinulot ka lang sa lupa
6. Ina, kasusuklaman ba kita?
7. Saan nagtatago ang pag-ibig

All I’m saying is that I want to be like her.  So, yeah. I’m bragging again. That is why I always tell in my blog entries that whatever you read in my blogs, don’t believe it. Haha! It’s just me, nagging and writing my thoughts. In truth, I’m not confident. I read somewhere that bloggers should not call themselves writers because that would be an insult to those who studied years to become a writer. But Gilda Olvidado did not finish college and yet she is the best Filipino writer ever. Her works are classic. So, I’m thinking that people who set rules and standards suck You don’t need a diploma in creative writing from UP Diliman to become a writer. Writing is innate, a passion. You don’t learn it. You must be born with it. JOKE!. Maybe Gilda Olvidado is exceptionally talented. But because I’m not at all talented, I will definitely need some training from a prestigious university to master the art of writing.

So anyway, it’s raining opportunities, literally. Somehow, I’m already confused on which among these offers to grab. First off, I’ve come to realize that there is really no “asenso” in being an employee. Specially in my case: always best in tardiness, never the employee of the quarter. Haha!
What I’m trying to say is that if I can’t be a role model office staff, then maybe I can be something else. Like a full-time freelancer, maybe?

Since last month, I’ve been sending my resume to companies and offices in Makati. I never intended to work in that place because they said that the people there speak in fluent English and that they are really “sosyal” and all. Not that I’m intimidated. I just feel like I don’t belong there. Joke. Drama! Nothing. In fact, I think Makati is not that glamorous, contrary to popular beliefs. My dream working place is Paris! So, Makati is “so-so” for me. LOL.

Kidding aside, I was invited to 8 job interviews for the position of Copy Writer | Web Content Writer | Content Writer | Online Marketing Writer. Basically, I want to work as a writer in a big company that pays me a minimum of 36K a month. Am I asking for too much? That is the amount that I can earn in a month if I’m going to work full-time in my online jobs. So, if I’m going to work in a company in a full-time basis, they should be able to exceed that amount, right?

Out of those 8 invitations, I went to just one and the rest, well, I was tied up with lots of writing commitments, I wasn’t able to attend anymore. Funny, when the employer asked about my expected salary, I said 18K. LOL. I was too shy to say my real expectation. I was scheduled for another interview this morning but I have writing assignments in Odesk, so I decided not to go.

I am thinking, why do I need to apply for jobs in Makati when I already have a lot of writing gigs online? And I can have more if I wanted to. If I really really wanted to. If I had more time. If I had no full-time job to think about. If only HMO, SSS, PAGIBIG, etc., were not important to me, I would have given up my office job long ago. Freelancers don’t have such benefits. That’s the main problem.

I’m confused. Which is better? To work at home or to work in a company? Hmmmm … I’m single. I have very few responsibilities. I’m renting a small place. My electric and water bills do not cost that much because I’m alone. I eat a lot but I’m happy with Jollibee meals, I mean no fancy restaurants for me. In other words, I only need P500 or $12 a day in order to survive. That’s all I NEED. But I WANT more money for my caprices. Hehe.

I’m currently looking at my options. I can work full-time in my office job and be a part-time freelancer. Or, quit my office job and work full-time in freelance writing, where I truly belong. If I could earn $50 dollars a day, then I’m going to resign now! Haha! But I’m going to work really hard for that huge amount and definitely, it’s not going to come from only one source or just one contract. I’ll need at least 3 long-term contracts in Odesk.

As of now, I have 2 fixed-priced assignments, both employers told me that if my performance passed their standards, they’re going to give me more projects I also have 4 hourly-based contracts and they’re not giving me much tasks but I’m not complaining. I’m able to earn $75 a week for a few hours of writing and editing. Okay, they said there are tons of work to do and that we need to discuss it via Skype. Problem is, I’m online when they’re offline and vice versa. Apparently, the Phillippines and the US have a 12 or 13 hours time difference.

So, do you think it’s possible? Or should I wait for things to be stable first? I can earn 12 dollars a day and more than that. But I doubt if $50 dollars daily is feasible. Haha! My plan is to stay in my full-time job while I’m doing freelance jobs. But holy smokes, I can’t serve two masters at the same time. Eventually, I will have to choose and that time is now. I have to make a decision.

Presently, my target is just $50 a week but if I’m going to work full-time in this online industry, I can raise my target income to $100, that’s $400 a month. What do you think? Well, I think that it’s too small for an amount. Haha! I’m really ambitious. I want to earn $1000 a month. That’s $250 a week. That’s $50 a day. Question is where will I get that $50? I have ideas but I’m going to kill myself writing and blogging. Maybe I should be contented with $100 a week and that’s just 20 hours of writing

one more thing, if I’m going to work full-time in Odesk, then maybe I should start accepting very low job offers like this one?

Or maybe I should still accept a full-time home-based job! How about this one?

It’s one my most wonderful job offers. They asked me to submit a sample and until now I haven’t written it yet because after office hours I still need to meet the deadlines in my writing gigs Sayang. But I’d still submit my sample article about Korean festivals even if it’s already late. Just so they wouldn’t think that I disregarded them. And then I’ll ask if there is a part-time position as well. Hehe.

I used to ignore the RH Bill or republic health bill which made me a useless citizen. Since I’m single, things such as using of contraceptive pills and methods that stop a woman from becoming pregnant don’t interest me. I mean, if only it’s possible to conceive without a husband, I would have given birth to a boy or a girl years ago. Yes, I know it’s possible but becoming a single mother is definitely not one of my many dreams! LOL.

Anyway, I went to my favorite church last week and found some flyers that say “No to RH Bill.” Apparently, the Catholic Church is against it and being a Catholic Christian, the church’s teachings and doctrines influence me a big deal. The Church doesn’t just influence me. I believe that the Church has authority! So now, I am against the RH Bill too.

I’ve heard horrible stories about women dying while giving birth. I really think that the government ought to do something to achieve a zero-death rate during pregnancies. Some women may take drugs without even knowing its harmful side effects to their babies. Like in western countries, zoloft lawsuits are being filed by thousands of mothers. Zoloft is a drug that can result to manic behavior, depression, trouble in sleeping, and suicidal tendencies.

What I’m trying to say is that education will help solve such problems. But I still think that sex education in secondary school is not a brilliant idea. After all, experience is the best teacher. Kidding! I mean it’s a sensitive topic and I agree that only the parents are capable of discussing the subject with their teens